Wednesday, January 5, 2011


My stomach is full of strawberry pancakes. IPod at the repair shop. Cat, Elmo on my foot. Duran Duran flowing from the speakers. Red shirt with Tardis key around my neck. One couldn’t say I’m not a dedicated fan of my patchwork quilt of fandom. When your 7 year old sister wants to watch the 5th Doctor’s stories, you’ve done something right. Hell I even have a Doctor Who tattoo. But I digress.

So much for my plan to blog every day. Oh well, I’ll try again.

School is about to start next week, and I have no desire to go back at all. Being alone all the time makes me sad and grumpy, but I don’t want the hassle of the work.  I’m taking 5 classes again, and can feel the stress climbing up my legs. Sigh. Going to school will help me to be a better writer but the truth is (or what I think it is) that if you’re a good writer it’s already there. You have it. School teaches you the outlines, the formats the hard core info, but the substance, the core is there in you or not.  I question sometimes if I have it. Will I ever get the chance to prove myself? I wonder.  I want to write that’s all I want to do. I want to live it every day, breath it more than I already do. I know, but I don’t.
Sorry for the gloomy tone there that’s just my mindset on the career thing at the moment.

Moving on.

 My therapist is teaching me how to sew more things to help with my depression.  It’s quite interesting. I can make some things but struggle on other things. We tried a pillowcase this week, and I just couldn’t do it. LOL. Ripping seams over and over again the anger! If I can’t make a pillow case how can I make my secret project for gally? I question me so much. I need to stop but I can’t! Working on it.

She Geek Out.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

The start of the year.

Well it's the start of 2011.
How did I bring it in? Hanging with my cat Elmo, and watching the Doctor Who story Earthshock. Yes, Adric is dead. :D Lol.
Geek point one.

The year is gone and there are things I don't wanna think back on, and memories I will still be excited about later. New friends, new passions, graduation and a new school, firing from a crap job then moving to one I truly love. Good things and bad things changing all the time. The bouncing scale of life.

At the very end of 2010 I learned things that finally make sense. Insights into relationships, hobbies, and most importantly myself. I know myself more at 21 than I ever have claimed to know. I'm comfortable in my silly shoes. I love my geeky self! I love it so much that I don't care what anyone thinks about me anymore. I do me, and have no problem with it anymore.

So what about 2011?
I'm not gonna make any resolutions, cause they always seem to fly out the window. But I know what I want to do. I want to travel and grow as a person. I want to grow up finally and make all the trips and falls without descending into darkness. I can so do it!

What geeky things does Quiana want to do?
I want to branch out,
I want to devote more time to my writing,
I want to get published/paid for something I write,
I want to travel: First example going to Gallifrey One in LA. Geek point two.
And lastly I want to graduate from college.

Geeky Quiana out.


Who is the geeky girl?
The girl in the high heels who plays ‘World of Warcraft’. The girl with the purple mascara who loves ‘Star Trek’.
That’s me.
I’m the chick who’s not afraid to play video games with the boys. The young woman who plays dress up while watching ‘Doctor Who’.
I’m a BIG geek.
My geek rivals any the geek of guy. I wear my ‘geek’ badge proudly and want to share it with everyone. This blog will be about the melding of my worlds. Both sides of my coin. My likes, dislikes, and daily adventures.   
Welcome to my blog.